| I guess I haven't posted in a while, well..thats a lie, considering I tried to a few nights ago when I was upset and depressed due to things and my period. So. >.< It didn't go through because my internet has been hating me lately, so Its hard to get on sometimes. And its even harder with me trying to balance work, a social life and soccer. Micah's party yesterday was a complete blast. Well, for the five hours I was there. There was another five hours I wasn't there, because I had to work, but I guess thats okay with me. I get paid. So eh. I need to fill out that packet soon or I wont get paid >_< Dattebayo...
Anyways, I was dreading micah's party all week, because someone was going to be there. I was so freaked out. And it was all okay, until I left and was doing dishes at work. I'd think about her, and what she could possibly be doing to my boyfriend. It terrified me, because...I've been in this situation before. Many times with a boy that I thought I loved. My relationship with Nate left me heartbroken, and being in this situation has just been so painful to me, that at one point I think I wished that I would just die. Anyways, I had Kaely, Mary and Candi watching her, because I am that untrusting. Kaely told me that she had her arms around micah at one point, and he looked to Kaely for help....That still infuriated me, I am glad him and Kaely were working together to keep her off, but...couldn't he just....pull her arms off and just say, "I'm sorry, my girlfriend wouldn't appreciate this?" Is this just me being bitter towards her because she got to stay at the party and I didn't? Where she could get his attention, and I couldn't? Where she could....I dont know, I'm just rambling now. >.<;; Mmmm...I dont know. Freakin' eh.
I dont like it when I get like that, because then I seem like the 'over-protective obsessive psycho girlfriend' and thats like, the last thing I want to be to him. Kaely and Kenzo are pretty understanding of how I feel, and I'm grateful to them. Kenzo is...my big brother. He's always looking after me, and he takes care of me, in a way. Kaely is...I'm daring to say that Kaely is my best friend now. and by best friend i mean the person I see the most, who I talk to the most, who I confide in the most. I confide in Amber, but with how little we see eachother and stuff....yeah. But I got to hang with her friday. We watched 'Employee of the Month', and blew up condoms and threw them around the room. Trojan ones always popped or had holes in them. Hm...XD
Anyways, I guess that should be good for this update and stuff. Yeah. TTYL Losars! |
